divine_elixir

The temporary gig was... Unfortunately not sustainable. Walked in for the first day of training to incredibly predatory business practices, mind-boggling unprofessionalism, rampant nepotism and favoritism, and some clear outright lying/obfuscating of information/emotional manipulation going on. It was the most WTF I've ever had on the job. Of the eight hours of training I was scheduled for, exactly 2 hours ended up with me actually learning or doing anything relevant to the position (and one of those hours was.... sketchy, because it was reciting a sales pitch out loud for an hour straight). 

I was stuck in a room with fifteen other people and held as a captive audience while the instructor took us through her life story of being a childhood actor, adventuring teenager, Normal Highschooler, rich Californian actor (with all the details of her amazing luxury condos and bullshit), single mother, Florida-hating transplant, budding pest control technician, to now-saleswoman, among other inane bullshit. I kept sitting there waiting for it to get better, and it was all downhill. She kept bragging about how everyone loves her and about how emotionally intelligent she is, and never before in my life have I wanted to slam my face into a desk harder. She started the whole thing off by threatening to fire people if they fell asleep or went onto their phones. At first I was like, "What do you mean 'if they fall asleep'?" but by hour five I was fucking dozing too, sitting in that same spot in front of a black computer listening to her ramble on and avoid questions actually related to the details of the company. 

So, yeah. No dice.

On the bright side, I finished two weeks' worth of Calculus homework over the weekend. Keep running into the issue where I'm not sure how close the "write in how you found your answers" want me to get to the automatically generated "here's how you're supposed to do it" section. For one I tried hard to imitate its solution pattern from previous questions and got REALLY close, but still fucked it up. Right answer from the paper-solving, but wrote out the process wrong; forgot to fix the fucking denominator to make it look right for the quotient rule process. Facedesk. A part of me is also scared if trying to copy the solution patterns' syntax from the textbook and other questions is like, roundabout plagiarism???? It's different problems, but the same solution processes, so I don't really know how that works... But there's also the issue of I don't really know how to do some of these problems except how the textbook and homework program is showing me! Ughhhh. I love math, but this is stressful and sucks. I'm just extra paranoid because of that one Professor who used ChatGPT and hallucinated sources from it accused me of plagiarism way back when, because I used the school-supplied template for a homework assignment. =_= Like, fuck off, man. That's what I was supposed to do!!!